Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/10 under Uncategorized I feel like I have surpressed my thoughts and feelings for so long.. Masked my feelings for too long.. Had a smile on like everything was fine with me. Like I was happy. Like I was perfectly fine. Well its not.I’m not fine. I’m not happy. Infact I am depressed. Unhappy. And I can’t stand people. I’ve been strong for too long. Held backk my tears for too long. And I’ve come to a point where I can’t keep it together no more. I’m breaking. Slowly shattering falling apart. I’m vulnerable.depressed. Don’t know where I’m heading what I’m doing where do I belong or what to do in life anymore . I feel so unmotivated. So tired of expectations. So tired of being better of being the best of being perfect. I’m not. I’m only human. I have my limits. My flaws. And I have feelings which I can’t supress no longer. I’m afraid. Afraid of my past. Afraid of the unknown. The future. And today. Will my past haunt me forever? Or will it step aside and let me start over? I can’t seem to supress my tears any longer. I’m not okay. I’m crying. Crying myself to sleep again. Why? I have no idea myself . I want to be alone for once. Away from the eyes who judge. I want to be free for a night just one night to be alone. To be with myself to think . I need time to heal. Regret. Fear. Stress. Perfection. Idealisim.reputation. Money. Fame. Power. Emotions I wish could just disappear. I want to be emotionless for a night. I want the pain to go away. The people out there are just terrible. This world is a terrible place with terrible people whod hurt kill murder step on, cheat on, for power for money. Is it really worth it all that? I wonder sometimes. What has the world become.. I want to be alone to disappear to be alone. I’m tired of all this I’m tired of trying my best I’m tired of being tired.
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Its good that you have written it some where.